蒼涼的苦澀

Looking at the smile on your face, stab me so pain, once we were so close, but now I just want to gently hold you, but I don't know where you are. I walk HKUE amec in the wet campus, wrapped in thick long, only to increase the temperature of a, let my heart no longer cold. Once I was naive to think that our fate is doomed, no matter how far apart, the line is always pulling me, take me to your direction. I do not know when, as long as far looked at you, I will not consciously happy, in that moment gazing at all his troubles. Your face is my most familiar memory, time will change out the edges and corners, but still maintain its original appearance, just as I see you one eye. You, or like that, or inner place the deepest memories.

Don't know is the arrangement of the day, or edge of the traction, you become my first deskmate when I was a student, though in a few times, during those six years, however, will you still impressed in my mind, to be my sole memory. Until now, I understand you to me is the most pure, the most sweet. At that time, you and I not get along well, quarrel is HKUE amec our common, we see each other not pleasing to the eye, if the teacher adjust seat, best never sit together before graduation. One of the most fierce, you are I pinched black and blue, in fact, whether it's all my masterpiece, already can't remember, anyway your nearest, will naturally give me issued by the "honour". In that day your mother call, although not completely in Europe, but everybody knows that the short is don't bully her son again. After listening to my temper, the next day to see you, embrace this life no longer speak a word with you determination, sat down angrily. Which expect, however, since then really no longer and you said a few words, because we soon graduated. The joy of my heart, never see you, is really good. Little imagine, this could be my permanent pain. From then on, I meet you again, you don't talk, I also don't meet, so we in a very short time become the most familiar stranger to each other. Occasionally we collided eyes, you are also dodge, don't you really hate me? I ask myself.

Time slipped away, just like that for three years, meet again entered the most obscure, high middle most memories. The whole high school to me, and not a lot of happiness. Life is so boring, every day the same operation, a "university" for full of my whole high school life. Vaguely remember that before graduation examination, I inadvertently in my test schedule stare down your name on the seat, you and I are in the same venue, just like a junior high school entrance examination. Suddenly, I feel the heartbeat is accelerated, so happy, finally has a chance to let me close to you. On the arrival of the glorious moment I met you in the examination of the examination room, at half-time, I suggested going out for a walk, you very readily agreed, so simply have speech communication between us. And you walk side by side in you and I together my best time on the playground of the campus, my mood is difficult to answer. I know I like you, don't know since when. I enjoy you bring me feeling, enjoyed alone with you together of the time, every minute is like paradise to me. But I know, I don't enjoy the sweet for too long, because we are way too confused. I'm afraid I can't afford to this love, the more afraid of hurt you. In that day I seemingly random asked 1: "are you?" You there looked at me suspiciously, whispered: "no." In retrospect, I really doubt whether you lied. "You?" You asked, "how do I? I, probably, my parents won't agree with, besides, I also don't want to." You didn't speak up well to light with a sigh. Then your friend ask you how to don't make track for me? You're just shook his head. You don't know your answer when I actually just behind you, watching you shake head, I both joy HKUE amec and sorrow. As a neighbor, you are always the best in my eyes, really thank you for not in my life the most critical time into my world, you let me keep the peace. Increasingly strong later because of how you feel, I began to contain himself, began to escape your shadow, to escape your eyes, don't go to looking at your direction. But when I look at you and laugh with each other and maybe other girls, my heart is so painful. You detect changes, I also start to avoid me, although you don't know why to do this? This state lasted for about half a year. Finally that the rainy season in June, or keep, and I also got what I want results, but will you fall in there. In fact I want to say I really want to hug you, really, just a cuddle. The desire to finally did not happen.

After three months, a distant and unfamiliar place from me. The upper part of the city is still that piece of the sky, will rain, will be fine, but I know, it is no longer in the sky of my memory, because of the lack of my familiar smell, the lack of your shadow. No matter how I put the eye, would never have let me gaze upon your face; No matter how long I wandered the campus, they no longer have your shadow traction to my direction. You disappear in my eyes, hiding in my world. Every day and night my mind emerge your shadow, whether it's conscious, or in a dream. You is that you, let me think for a long time of you, in my deep memory of you. You can appear anywhere in the world, but can't appear in my line of sight. I traveled every corner of the city to find your shadow, to pursue our memories, but I can't find, can't find. I came up, I seem to see you in my trance, I reached out to touch, just as I thought seize the moment, you fall in behind me, I quickly turned and, you have to see, but I just want to gently hold you.